there was a time I used to miss you!
there was a time I used to worry about you!
there was a time I used to be longing for you!
but there never was a time I used to stop thinking of you…

all these time you never were there for me,
still I cared for you and loved you cos
I only know how to love, but dont know
how to stop loving you!

once I had a feeling you may’ve loved me too,
never got the guts to ask you!
the fear of losing you is more killing
than actually losing you…

you said many a times “I like you”
yes, I am trying to transform that likeness to love!
you may’ve got all the reasons to deny me
but I got none to hate you…

when I was chasing you, you never knew it was me!
when you know me, you never realized
I am the one who was trailing all along!

we spoke a lot, shared a lot
spent time together a lot
we’ve got more memories to cherish
and my love for you would never perish

my cowardice never allowed me to say it loud
but if I get a chance again I never would miss.
you may wonder what took me this long!
the farther you moved away, the closer i got to you…

you swoop me away the first time we met,
I couldn’t even talk to you properly, I choked
once we got to know each other, there’s
never a passage I could miss talking to you.

I may sound pretty confident, but I do mumble when I face you
I can write better in words than I speak
I don’t know whether you got time to read this or not! anyways,
just the thought
just the thought of you reading this made my bliss

sharing the same interests doesn’t mean
we’ve to share the life, but
it would be nice if it’s the case!

still loving you… with all my heart…
missing you…
and kissing you… in my dreams…

• diimaan (11/01/10)

the day has come

the one I feared the most
I never expected
an end like this!

but someone has to put an end
for the damage caused… we knew it before
now there is no love lost

between you and me!
it could’ve been a better ending
if we sat for a moment
and kissed a second…
instead you chose to let me go
bleeding, hurt and in despair
when I was in need of a warm hug
which hurt me more…

now we stand at a point
where it all began,
the path you choose is yours…
might’ve not asked you
to not to leave me high and dry!
but my heart wanted you by my side…
I may not have said that out loud
but I cried inside…

when brain takes control over heart
we tend to make hasty decisions
which could be life changing or breaking
I’m lying here broken!

no one can never fix a broken glass
nor the broken hearts!
I think someone forgot
to remind this to us…

with you on the far end of this world
I could still survive only
with those faded memories in my heart
and whistling the lines

“I’m a poor lonesome cowboy, and a long way from home”

I have a small ray of hope
that you would come back
at least before my days…
carrying this hope in my heart

I would like to say

“adios senorita”…
P.S:
now I realized goodbye seems to be the hardest word

• diimaan (20/09/09)

there is a li’l lady in town
and a li’l boy who was sure

that she is an ANGEL!
whenever she came across

he asks for a wish and
believed it could come true…

evenm though he is so naive
but he was serious about his wishes

poor boy din’t know
that the lady had other thoughts

she never took him serious
and in her mind she thought what a duffer!

after some years passed,
the grown up boy came to her

for the wish of his life to be granted.
she told him that his wish could never come true!

jokingly though she said,
but the boy took it real bad…

he went back to his place
he needed some solace

he packed his goods and ran outta town
needless to say he was really down

some more years gone and
the lady missed him more than his dad

she tried to find him
but all her efforts gone vain

she left a note in his place
incase if he returns he could reply she thought!

the place looked deserted and
she then realised he abondoned all

there she found a note for her
dated the day he left

after reading that it was clear
that how serious he was about her

couldn’t control her emotions, she
wished everything was just a dream

but it wasn’t and with heavy heart
she walked back!

now she realized, she’d never see him again…

• diimaan (13/09/09)

PS: read this with the tune of “Stairway to Heaven”

I was just gazing through my window
staring at the night sky

I saw the sky filed with stars and some lame asteroids
but it was YOU…

who attracted me the most
I fell in love at first sight…
YOU looked fairy, attractive and glowing
like a pearl just came out of its shell

YOU followed me whereever I go
and I liked your presence at nights
I used to walk alone on the streets so late
just to get some private time with YOU… :)

YOU always seemed to listen to me
YOU transformed my moodswings

sometimes YOU looked like a lovely mother
whois just trying to cuddle her kids
sometimes YOU look like an ocean
which is deep, filled with joy and sorrow
sometimes YOU look like a snow mountain
filled with adventures and mysteries
sometimes YOU smiled at me compassionately
which made me realise YOU

our longing affair was well and good
until that fateful day

YOU were gone without a trace
and I felt a sudden rush inside my throat

the sky looked empty without your presence
I was even afraid to look at the sky

to avoid the pain caused by your absence
when my world began falling into darkness

something urged me to look up the sky
with failing hopes I looked upon the sky

YOU made me smile and cry for the first time in my life
I saw YOU up again and smiling as lovely as ever at me…

yes YOU re-born that day

then I decided on that day, if YOU ever leave me again
I won’t lose my hope
and I’ll be waiting for YOU patiently
with the girl who sat there on a lonely rock…

• diimaan (10/09/09)